Day Twenty Eight - Jan 28, 2019
A relatively unproductive day…. shuttling kiddos around all day. By noon - that’s all I accomplished. Work, the ski lodge, the dog park… No school today! It can be challenging to find worth in toting kids and a dog around all day. Thankfully, today isn’t my normal schedule. Sometimes it can be so easy to complain about mundane monotonous routines… and it can be hard to gather up a sense of success from those moments.
Yet some of my best conversations with my kids have taken place on the road… when everyone’s eyes should be facing front and the stress of feeling as though you’re under the microscope doesn’t feel so overwhelming. The conversations on today’s trip to the ski lodge went down memory lane - filled with laughter and the excitement of getting ready to hit the big slopes today. The afternoon ride however was disastrous with Child Number Three claiming that Child Number One was ridiculous… etc, etc, etc… Makes me bonkers.
While I walked ALONE in the park with Nellie today - I caught a tiny glimpse of what life might look like in a few years when all three kids just simply aren’t home all day. This homeschool mom role is slowly coming to an end… and a new season will open up.
Today I challenged myself by asking these questions, “How do I value myself… - is it by what I do, how I feel, my roles?…” If I’m super honest and not distracted by the billion things that come across my plate each day - at my core, I know there are wobbly places inside of me that would prefer to have certain things established in order for me to feel value or worth. In my head, I can negate those beliefs… but the heart doesn’t always follow as the head would like.
And so, as I plodded through the park with just Nellie in the freezing cold… I saw some areas where the digging and planting and sowing and tending need to keep moving along.
And so my relatively unproductive day of toting kids and all their gear across the state of Pennsylvania and back yielded a moment of clarity in the mundane. A moment, most productive…